February 20th, 2018
do you have a favorite anything?
The first day of my Media class, we had to do introductions (which I hate SO MUCH) and the questions the professor wanted us to answer were:
- What is your name? “My name is Anny” (easy)
- What is your major? “I am majoring in Video Arts and Technology” (I can handle this)
- Why are you taking this class? “This class is a requirement and it would help me a lot for my VAT major” (okay, I’m speaking for a long time) and
- What is your favorite movie? (oh god)
Now, I’m always nervous for these introductions, but for the last question, my god, I was blank. So, I said that I didn’t have a favorite movie in which the professor responded:
“And you’re a VAT major?”
And his tone made me feel strange. Strange in a way that maybe, just maybe, I’m not good enough for this.
I know, such a simple question, but it was enough to make me question if I’m actually made for the film world.
But after overthinking and torturing myself whether I was lying to myself, it occurred to me that maybe he misinterpreted my response. Maybe he didn’t understand that I can’t choose a favorite, because there are so many movies I enjoyed that I can’t pick just one. (That, and because I change my mind a lot 😅)
Take food as an example. I love pizza, but I can’t say it’s my favorite food because I enjoy sushi a lot too, and steak, and burgers, and pasta and maybe others that I can’t think of right now. Therefore I say I don’t have a favorite dish but that doesn’t mean I don’t like eating (I love eating btw).
Or songs. There are songs that mark such good times in my life and I still enjoy listening to them. But there are songs that I also love that don’t really have such sentiment but I still like them. It’s very difficult for me to pick one. Besides, there are new songs coming in our lives so.
Maybe it’s just me, that if I pick a favorite, then people will have certain image of me forever. I feel like it wouldn’t give me room to change. I know that people can still have an image of you with or without favorites. I guess it’s a perfectionist thing? Or probably I don’t want to have people not believing me when I talk out of my heart about something I have passion for because “after a month or two, I would change for another thing.” I have no idea.
I don’t really have a favorite anything, they’re just things I enjoy more than others. And I wish I could’ve told him that you don’t have to have a favorite to be passionate for something 🎥📸.
But maybe it’s different for you. Do you have favorites? I’m curious.